Deb's Blog

I'm not much of a new year resolution kind of person. I do what is needed, when it's needed, to get to where I need to be. But of late, I've found myself in an incredibly privileged position of having time, energy AND resources to do not only what I need to do, but also the things that I want to. I can play the video games I like, buy the things I like, travel the places I like - all these things I want to and more - without negatively affecting any of the things that I need to do (responsibilities of various forms). It hit me with a massive realization, that not many people - not only the ones alive in modern era, but even the ones that are now part of history - regardless of their power, riches or fame - have had this much amount of degrees of freedom & learning/growth opportunity in their lifetime. For that, I find myself to be incredibly fortunate, and that also makes me restless. Cause if I don't turn this opportunity into something useful, something worthy, wi...

I was about to go full epic-narrator mode , but I'm barely keeping it together. Subjectivity will creep in, can't help it at the moment. I _can_ still try to explain it in a succinct, bullet points, matter-of-fact way, but I'm choosing against it. So, it'll be a bit long winding story, unlike most of my posts. What I lost can't be downloaded, borrowed or recreated. There were one of each of those things, and now there aren't. I don't expect anyone else to 1:1 grasp how I feel about losing 4 years worth of hobby projects, things I brought to life to be no longer there - so, if you're like "yeah, not like anyone died... chill out & quit bickering about it" I don't really fault you for that. I don't have a pet; I wouldn't quite understand how losing a pet may feel either - compared to someone who does - at least not to the same extent. So, please excuse me while I write its obituary, cause I want this to stay as vivid of an example...